So I didn’t realize how long it was since I posted to this blog. Life has been interesting. First off, last month I had to have surgery to remove an endometrial cancer and this brush with ANOTHER serious illness has given me a new sense of purpose. It has been my lifelong dream to travel internationally but I can’t do it if every other day I have to be hooked to a dialysis machine. So I am doing my best to lose the weight so I can get on the transplant list. Once that happens, you won’t be able to keep me in the US. I feel like I have so much time to make up.
Along that same vein, I’m also actively looking for a girlfriend. Or rather, I’m finally opening myself up to the possibility of love. I’ve always been okay with being alone. But lately that’s turned to loneliness and I don’t think that’s all that healthy. Roadblock there is my crippling crisis of confidence. I put up and OK Cupid profile but even though I’m not really looking for anything serious, I feel like I look horrible on paper and all the women that they match me up with are so smart, interesting, well-read and traveled. I feel like a rube. Also, I’m apparently needing to move to Brooklyn to find someone.
And I need to write more. I actually feel compelled lately. So I’m am going to try and post on a Monday-Wednesday-Friday schedule. It’s going to be a mix of ramblings and rants like this and more formal pieces I as search around and try to find my voice. Feedback from anyone reading this would be much appreciated.
So bye for now and hopefully not for long.